hm...

na ja gestern; eher heute, es war 2 uhr nachts- hab ich nach langen stunden den Pc ausgemacht; und dabei hab ich sowas gefühlt:
habs heute ein bisschen umgeändert und hinzugefügt; sind wahrschienlich lauter grammatikfehler drin :S
....

If you stop for a little moment to look at the screen and stop thinking, you notice the bare loneli- and sadness sorounding you, you make an atmosphere,
where you betray youself. Through only entertain yourself, drinking, watching, reading, wakling, dancing, -
you're thinking only about fun and success
all the time
it doesn't content. you have to do it more and more, till this unsatisfieding fellig disappeers
you don't breathe really; you live only for fun....??
where is the..reason for my life, for my being..?
only to have something like fun?!
only to laugh; to live a "nice" live?!!!
that's wrong..or?
Doesn't exist something like....completion???
Yes, it has to exist. I felt it sometimes..a breeze comes from...
and i'm feelling yet another thing...

not everyone believe's in god..
but everyone feels the band according completion and everyone's asking oneself
after a reason for life...
and everyone feels the desire after something that can fill up the gaping hole in they heart. Don't they?
You don't feel it always, rare often
it's like a fish in the sea; sometimes when you're eye's open.. you see a silhouette
emergent and vanishing..

Do you wanna live or be alive..?